Guess I'm out again this month.

Just need to vent. Feel free to just read or respond. Feeling extremely emotional today. My period is due in 2 days. I took a pregnancy test today and it was negative...like always.  I get more bitter as each TTC day goes by. I know I am in a full blown depression regarding this. I have tried literally everything short of iui and ivf which I cannot afford.  I have been pregnant many times and miscarried.  I mean when is enough enough? Do I let go of my desire because my body sucks???