Am I The Only One? The text I sent my husband recently....

That awkward moment when you can't sleep because you're horny....oh that doesn't happen to you? Cool. Anyway. I don't know where to find answers but I'm really struggling with this screwed up issue I have. It kills me to the point where when I feel this way,

Your touch isn't just cute cuddles, it makes me want *that* > You're sleeping or not interested > I kick myself for wanting it > I feel broken and stupid > I cry.

OR you want it and we do have sex. It's alright, but I wasn't really turned on first, which to a woman feels like trying to cook a frozen pizza in 5 minutes in a not-preheated oven. I spend the whole time bending my mind over backwards to try to "feel everything" and then you're done and happy and I'm...alone. Cold. No melted cheese. No crispy crust. Feeling more messed up than I did the day before. It hurts. Emotionally. Psychologically. If I could have just one wish right now...that might be it. Rant over. Well, it's not really a rant. It's the things I don't tell you because I don't want to hurt you or burden you. But the things I can't really tell to another soul I know.