I may have depression

I’m always sad but hide my feelings, I have suicidal thoughts, I have mood swings I eat too much and gain weight. When really I’m tryna loose weight.

I don’t tell my mom or anyone cause I don’t want them to think I have mental issues or crazy 😰 cause I’m not

I have found a counselor and I’m starting to open up to her, I say I probably I got like this since last year. Cause it’s two year I lived in a army base I got no friends no social life, don’t work. I can see now y I became depressed I got no life to be honest. I babysit my niece and nephew everyday. I say it was best for me to stay at my hometown cause before I wasn’t like this. I had a job and on days off I would go out with my best friends. If I do have depression let me say it’s kicking my ass it’s like I always wear a mask to cover my real feelings I always put up a fake smile when deep down inside I’m hurting. I don’t do suicide cause I got my nephews n niece that I wanna see them grow up I still wanna be apart of their lives, their the reason y I’m still here. Plus because I wanna see where life takes me too.