To the baby I will never hold I am sorry for what I am doing to you but I know I wouldn’t be able to carry you physically yes but emotional and financially no .i am sorry for the pain you must be feeling wonder why I didn’t want you I am sorry that I hurt you when I should be the one protecting you.i am sorry for bringing you into would and then taking you out right after .Iam sorry that I couldn’t keep you for second I wanted to keep you and see you and hold you and name you and hear first words and see you walk for first time but I knew the realty of things I couldn’t keep you even though for that second I wanted to if I could I would go back and stop myself from having sex I would.Doing so I wouldn’t have to know the pain of hurting my child I am sorry for hurting you I hope one day if I see you again you will love me and understand but if you don’t I will understand .

Again sorry to the baby I will never hold