Life gets better

I have suffered from depression since I was a teen. Tonight it flared up badly after months of tolerable moods. Long story short, I just left a narcissistic, abusive 3 year relationship with our child in my care. This guy in the messages... I met him in college before the ex. He has been there for me through it all and we officially started talking about a month ago. I have been fighting admitting it... but.. I love this guy. I may not know what that love means right now, but I finally admit that I do.