The nights are so hard

These past couple nights have been so hard. I started my miscarriage last Sunday and am barely bleeding now. But I just can’t fall right to sleep when everyone else does. I stay up thinking about my little peanut and I didn’t tell me mom I was pregnant. And I’m scared to tell her what happened. I’m 20 so I’m a big girl but idk I didn’t want to disappoint her. And now it’s just so much. My heart hurts so bad. I only get to see my bf on the weekends so during the week it’s all me. Just me and my mind. It really sucks.