help..šŸ˜”

I have dated boys before but I always feel like thereā€™s something missing. I donā€™t always feel comfortable with them but I feel the same way when Iā€™m around girls. ( with being uncomfortable) I wonder start to experience with girls then I might get that tiny connection that I have been missing or maybe I just suck at relationships. But I donā€™t want people to find out if I do because itā€™s high school!! I donā€™t want people to think that Iā€™m desperate and I just ā€œdecidedā€ to be attracted to girls. Iā€™m scared and I donā€™t want people to start making rumors or finding out that I might like girls. What should I do? How can I experience without anyone knowing? How can I know if a girl is even gay or at least bi? Help a sister out please!!