So sad and stressed out

I have been TTC for 8 months. I am so sad and stressed out. I got married in July and I feel like from the minute I got married it's like when are you having a baby? My younger sister got married in September she is due in June. I feel like an embarrassment and a failure watching my little sister be pregnant and congratulated everywhere we go meanwhile I am just sitting there looking like a total failure. All the time people accidentally congratulate me and ask when I'm due because they have heard one of us is pregnant and assume it's me and it is so stressful and embarrassing being like oh sorry that's not me it's my sister.

Every single day I am told someone new is pregnant and most often they were married after me. I don't understand how so many people get married and bam pregnancy happens and for me it is try and try and try.

I feel like I am dying inside and I wish I could talk to my friends about it but I feel like absolutely no one is there for me. I feel like i have to just suffer in silence. My husband is so sweet and messaged his mom back in December and told her I was having a hard time and told her to reach out to me. She messaged me and said she would like to get together once the holidays are over........ correct me if I'm wrong but it's middle of fucking March has she not had time since the "holidays"? I feel like I have to be like cough are we going to get together to talk about my super dark sadness or what...???????? I just hate how I am the nicest daughter in law ever and always there for her and she's radio silence when it comes to me even though my husband has told her to reach out.

This is so hard I just wish I could be pregnant right now! I had positive OPKs in January and February and have been having lots of sex so it is like what is going on?!?!?

It's just so hard to be happy for everyone when you have been trying so hard and nothing. I feel sad and like a failure.