I finally left my verbally and sexually abusive fiance

i met my ex two years ago and in the beginning he was the sweetest man I'd ever met

but as the months went on he started acting differently more aggressively. one night i discovered that he went on Craigslist and was talking to other women and when i confronted him about it he told me he did it because i didn't talk "dirty enough" to him in bed. I forgave hime for that one.

almost a year into the relationship he began to talk bad about me and he hit me a couple of times.....I STAYED.

Then one night he did something i thought he would never do. he came home late and i asked him where he had been and instead of answering he pushed me on the bed and that night he raped me... i was too scared to go to the police and he had alienated me from my family so i couldn't call them. the next morning i woke up to flowers and chocolate as some sort of apology...and I again forgave him.

I know now at that time i should have packed and ran for the hills

as months passed his behavior got worse. i was raped almost every night. i wasn't allowed too see my friends and evrytime i tried to find solace in my family he would start an argument which led to more abuse.

I never in a million years thought that I would end up in that kind or situation and every time i heard about a woman being abused I would always say "why did she stay?"

now i know why...i was broken down piece by piece. I kept thinking no one else would want me. i felt alone and depressed.

lets fastfoward to now...my breaking point.

on st.patricks day he stayed out all night and when he came home he had hickeys all over his neck...BUT this time I didn't confront him about it. I actually ignored him that seemed to anger him so again i was sexually assaulted.

when I woke up the next morning I knew it was time for me to escape. I called a womans help hotline and they blessed me with the greatest news

A TICKET OUT OF STATE!!

this has been one of the hardest two years of my life but i can finally say im free! I cannot and will not go back to that monster I've already wasted enough of my life on that loser.

I just wanted to share my story so if anyone else is going through what i went through they can see this and seek help like i did.

I'm ready to start a new chapter of my life and be happy again