Just a little something I wrote.

I've been here before. I've done this. I've wanted it for so long that it still doesn't seem real. Even though I've been feeling you move for 2-3 months now. I'm not anxious of the way it has to happen, not like I was before with your big brother. I'm not scared that I can't do it. I'm overjoyed that I've been given the chance to do it again, after 7 years. After what happened with your big brother. I hope I get to do it again after you. I see your crib, the diapers, stroller, car seat, all your tiny clothes & it hits me every time. You'll be here soon. I don't have much longer. 13 1/2 weeks & we'll get to see you. I see all these moms giving birth, holding their bundles, or at the end of their 9 month stretch. I see the happiness & joy they have. I can't wait to have that again. Your brother was & still is my everything, even though we've got it rough. I can't wait for him to meet you & hold you. I can't wait to see his face light up when he sees you for the first time. I can't wait to be your mommy. Your daddy loves you so much already. He talks to you every night. He rubs & pats my belly during the day to let you know he's ready for you. Your Granny, brother, aunts, Nana, PawPaw, uncles & cousins can't wait for you to be here, either. We all want to see what you'll look like. Will you be like your daddy? Tall, thin & nothing but arms & legs? Or will you be like me? Short, chubby & stubby? Or will you take after both of us in different ways? Tall, but chubby with dark hair & eyes? We have 3 months to wait until we know. We're all anxious of your arrival. As the days pull us closer to your due date, I can't help but get excited. I smile every day when I walk in your room or feel you move. I look around at all the stuff we've bought for you & I can't wait for you to use it. Having it all makes me wish you were here now, but at the same time I don't, because I get to carry you & feel you kick me (even though sometimes it's uncomfortable & it seems like I have forever to go, I wouldn't trade it.) You don't know how ready mommy & daddy are for you. I can't wait to meet this tiny human that is half of me & half of the person I love. You're gonna be great, just like your big brother. As excited & as anxious as we are waiting for you, we know you still have to bake a little longer, but just know, you are so loved, Avery. ❤️