Driving myself craZy

We’ve been actively trying for a couple months now with no luck. We gave ourselves a stopping point of this month. That it will be whatever it will be and we would be done trying since we have a 3 year old and didn’t want 2 kids to far apart. Well af is due next Thursday and today I’m 8dpo. I’m so sad and so scared that this will also be a negative and my fate will be 1 child when I picture my life with 2. Someone send me baby dust please. And please be kind with your comments.