This is going to be long, sorry. back in September I felt like one of my friends, I had helped him after he broke up with his girlfriend who was one of my friends. we grew really really close and now I think I love him. next Friday he's going to start dating another one of my friends, I want him to be okay now and move on from his last relationship. I want him to be okay, even if it's not with me. I don't think I stopped crying for at least an hour last after I found out night and I was throwing up and having a panic attack. I knew he wouldn't want to be with me I don't know why I am being like this. in my own way I am happy for them, right now I'm just really really hurting. she asked me if it was okay, I would have told her to go for it, that how I feel should not get in the way of them. I'm just really really sad right now. I'm not mad at either one of them, just myself.