Threat of Miscarriage

I am Atheist and 8 weeks pregnant with baby number 2 and pregnancy number 4. Since I have had two miscarriages, early on (like from the moment I found out I was pregnant), my pregnancy was labeled abnormal and high risk. I had to go to the doctor every two days to ensure that things were developing correctly and in the right spot. They finally bumped me down to normal pregnancy at 7 weeks when the ultrasound showed an embryo in my uterus with a heart beat of 117.

Anywho, before being told everything is fine for now, I talked to my embryo a lot, begging it, "please stay. I will love you, I promise." I felt kind of silly knowing that it couldn't hear me and even if it were possible it couldn't understand. I felt very illogical, but did it anyway.

Now everyone who knows anything about it, including my doctors, are telling me that all my "praying" paid off. I wasn't praying. I was talking to my potential offspring. And what if I miscarry tomorrow? Has my "prayer" paid off or am I being punished for not doing it right? No one seems to get why I am upset at being told I was praying when I wasn't.

Sorry this was kinda long. Just venting to people who might understand.