So stressed out.

When i get really really stressed out, I start having bad thoughts. I'm 23 weeks pregnant. My child's father is a asshole most of the time like I'm not supposed to be emotional. I don't think about harming myself or him. But sometimes i think what would have happened if I got a procedure and just left him. DON'T MISUNDERSTAND ME, I LOVE MY CHILD AND NO HARM WILL COME TO HER! I was diagnosed with depression last year, could that be a factor in this as well? I don't regret my baby, just the person I got pregnant by.