But is god even real...

Honestly, I️ don’t think I️ believe in god anymore. I️ mean idrk. Everyone on this page is so faithful and stuff and I️ wonder how people put their faith in someone who has never given back to help the world. Do prayers even work. Honestly I️ don’t think they do, if you want to get help, advocate for yourself and others who need it. Thoughts and prayers have done nothing to help those in dire need. I’ve tried not to give up my faith, but it’s so hard to even believe. I️ mean cmon, look at Leviticus. I️ don’t feel the want to believe in a faith tht has hurt so many people because it goes against so many things and contradicts itself every other page. I️ recently just saw a post that said tht if you don’t believe in god you’ll go to hell. Why should god determine what happens to us. I️ don’t want to be lead down a path that’s “worth it in the end”. That might be the case for me, but some people don’t make it to the end. Are those people useless in God’s so called “big plan”?! Because honestly that doesn’t want me to put my faith in god. I️ can see it as a way to vent and get things off your chest but I️ have seen no miracles. I️ want to believe again, but my motivation is low for this. Id rather try to help people by doing something instead of praying.