Ugly to Pretty?

How did I become ugly to suddenly pretty (in my eyes)?

Here’s my story.

When I was younger I had always considered myself as ugly. I thought I would never ‘fit in’ with other people, or never get a boyfriend when I was older. I always told myself that I was a mistake in my eyes. But I tried to treasure the fact that I was chosen to be given a life by fate, so I had to accept that. Negative thoughts about my appearance overwhelmed me. I struggled just choosing something to wear for the day. And it was a never ending battle, especially as changes began to happen.

My friends and many others had told me of how pretty I was. And some gushed over me. But I was still not convinced I was pretty. Doubt treaded over my self esteem, crushing the thoughts of me ever being as gorgeous as they said. And it didn’t help either when people in the hallways had called me “Sriracha” because of my dyed hair color. I had dyed it a sunset color, the red at the top of its game. I tried to laugh it off but it really struck me. Depression consumed me.

But then I thought to myself,” Why am I letting my looks and others opinions get to me? Why did it matter on what they think of me. It’s my body. Not theirs.”

And then it hit me.

I began to be more confident after much self convincing. Over time I learned to love myself. And trust me, that took a while. It was difficult to love something I once saw as a disgrace, a plastic bag in the wind. But I was so much more. Curiosity found me, and I began to try makeup. But it wasn’t to cover myself up, I did it for fun. And I know many girls do it to hide themselves, but don’t. It’s not healthy to think like that. Just be yourself.

After much practice with makeup, I got the hang of it. More changes were occurring and I became older. I wasn’t that little kid anymore. I’m an independent woman who loves myself. “There’s no one I would rather be than me (pretty sure that’s a quote). And literally today, I looked into the mirror and saw this gorgeous woman in front of me, and I wasn’t even wearing makeup. How insane is that? First time ever I thought of myself as pretty.

So, my queens. Listen to your homie right now. You. Are. Beautiful.

If you do not think so, ask yourself why? And go from there. Do not be afraid to express yourself. If people don’t like you or think you are weird, hun you are better than them. Most of the time people say bad things about others because they are JEALOUS. Yes ladies, jealous. Maybe it could be some other reason, but most of the time it’s just plain old jealousy.

Some people love themselves just like that, but for the people like me, it takes time. But you have to be willing to take the time to build yourself up.

And you aren’t being self centered when you say you love yourself. Because it’s okay to love you and your body, and just love being yourself.

Take care of yourselves sweethearts.

I hope my story inspired you a bit.

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