BFN for your birthday

Well today i turned 34. been ttc for the last few months but even getting to this point has taken even longer. With life getting in the way and struggling with depression i battled for the last 5 years and have spent the last 12 months coming off my meds ( with my doctor) to have a safer less risky pregnancy. I was due on 5 days ago and have had the classic symptoms, headaches sickness light cramping sore breasts etc. I hoped and prayed and last night had some spotting follwed by brown spotting this morning. I took my clear blue this morning still with hope and that Not Pregnant hit me like a tone of bricks. sorry for the long post. just needed to get it out. baby dust to us all xx