lost my peanut

Well I took blood tests and peed on stick after stick then headed to the ER last night as I seemed to have started my period they confirmed I am having a early miscarriage they said since I was under 4 weeks that my body would do the work & I did not need a DNC this early in pregnancy.... I know I'm only 25 but that baby way the only part of my ex I had left the only part of him that no matter what I could keep with me I know that's a selfish thing to say but I already loved it so much started looking into daycare & everything I was so happy to finely be a mommy this is my 2nd miscarriage....& my fantasy acting like it don't even matter my own mother looked at me and say "suck it up I'm busy with stuff & don't have time for your bullshit kid Weehoo its dead move on" MY OWN MOTHER...so ya just kinda venting bc my baby did mean something he/she was a person