It has been 12 years since I was sexual abuse/rape. It blew my mind when I realized its been that long ago... But kinda feels like it just happened.

I was only 10yrs old when it happened for over a year. The guy was my uncle & was sentence to 35years in prison. I went to therapy for about a year an a half. Since as a teen I thought about what happened to me. Had nightmares as well. But then suddenly it stop.

I am 22 years old now

The other day I received a phone call. Saying that he might be getting out next year. Since he already did half of his time in prison. But if he stay in good behavior till then he might get out early maybe towards the end of the year. After the phone call I began to cry. I didn't knew that it will still affect me until this day. but it has, I been thinking about constantly. He's words keeps coming back to me in my head. "No one will believe you" "What I'm doing is okay" "If anything happens to me I will be back & find you."

I'm scared out of my mind. I have a daughter & keep telling my self i have to keep her safe, even if he comes back to hurt me.

I have told my bf about what has happened to me when I was young. but I haven't told him yet on how this is affecting me since the phone call. I don't know what to do. I'm scared, I'm hurt!! I keep having flash back on what has happened. & I can't stop it from not thinking about it.