Family rant sorry about the length I just wanna talk to someone

Im sad I can't share my happiness of being pregnant with nobody but my mom n my best friend my family never cared too much for me even as a child I was always left out of every family trip/vacation/reunion even with my wedding I had to elope because I didn't have anyone who I could invite who would actually come I always wanted a big wedding with a reception and a bachelorette party even now I would love to do a gender reveal or a baby shower even if I planned it myself Nobody would come I just feel like I don't have any real family members they might share my last name but that's it I always asked my family why they never included me an my dad side their answer is always it's your moms fault I know that's not the case my mom was a great mom she never left my side not like my father and mom side would explain something about me being raised in the city vs the country even though I never gave any problems to the family unlike the other members who they do claim I mean they gave problems like ( running away, calling police on parents problems at school teen pregnancy etc.) Ive judged none of them hell we all have a crazy past but it I see how some people have those families who they can share happy moments with like this for example my cousin had cancer n was sick i didn't even know and everyone planned together and went and saw her before she passed on New Years day and I wasn't invited to the funeral I had to find out from Facebook I confronted them and their response was you should check Facebook we put everything on Facebook I feel like if I don't get a call or text or simple Facebook message im not invited its really hard living without family people always say you will need your family n ive been thinking lately that my son wont even be able to experience life with uncles and aunts and cousins etc. and that hurts me as a new mom that he wont have anyone but me n his grandmother and all I can think about is if something happens to me what's he going to do? That's for listening to my rant