This is really weird so sorry but I’ve only been sexually active with one guy and it was the love of my life. Sex and anything sex related was so good with him, especially considering we were both virgins before meeting. Anyway, we were together for almost a year and we were always together and almost always fucking. It’s been almost 3 months since we’ve broken up and I’ve been really... frustrated. I’ve never liked masturbation, I don’t know why but it just doesn’t feel good to me. I guess I’ve had the opportunity to be with other guys but I really don’t want to, I only want him. It’s ridiculous because I know he doesn’t love me and isn’t interested in being with me at all but I’m just so like idek confused and frustrated