I'm 21 and I've only received oral once from my ex. Before it happened, I used to think that oral would be amazing and so hot and that I'd love it when I finally got to do it. In reality, it was really bad. It was his first time doing it, so obviously he didn't really know what he was doing. I remember looking down at his head and thinking how unattracted I was to him at that moment (that sounds mean, I know!). I have issues with my self-confidence and I was really concerned that he absolutely hated it and that I tasted/smelled nasty. It didn't feel good, it just felt wet and cold after he moved his mouth away. Honestly, I hated it and was so uncomfortable with the thought of someone being so up close with my vagina that I just faked an orgasm (something I did way too often) and never let him do it again. I'm now single but I'm wondering if oral ever gets better or if I'm destined to be one of those women who just never enjoy it.