Why does seeing two men together make me happier than seeing any other combination of genders together?

I seriously feel no romantic or sexual attraction towards anyone these days. And being in a relationship with a man as I am a woman just doesn't feel quite right. But being with a woman doesn't either. The only relationships/couples I find adorable or that are couple goals for me are two men. Like I'd only feel right dating a man if I was one. I almost wish that was something I could experience. Being a man with a man. I feel strange feeling this way. Guy couples are just so cute that I don't even feel right being with a guy. Does that make sense? Like have you read/watched Call Me by Your Name? I wanted nothing more, throughout the story, to be Elio and Oliver. That felt right. Like it almost hurts my feelings that I'll never get to be a boy curious about boys. And no I don't believe I'm trans, I'm pretty comfortable with my identity as a female. So I don't know what this is.