Venting

So I’m a freshman In college and I have hsv 2. Lately I’ve just been having a really hard time talking to guys because I know that if anything happens I have to tell them. I recently told a guy who freaked out and it got me really down in the dumps about it, and I just feel terrible. I know that someday I’ll find someone and everything but I just wish it was easier to talk about without feeling horrible. Like I didn’t choose to get hsv and I have to love with it and I know no one wants it... but why do I have to feel like a freak when I tell people? 😕