I’m pretty sure I’m not the only female that’s going through this but i feel like i am...

But anyways

I’ve been with my kids father for 6years and even know things have gotten rough in the past we always made it through

Well recently in November 2017 he came home like normal and sat me down and told me he wanted me to be happy even if it wasn’t with him

But the issue was i was happy with him i love our little family i finally felt like things was coming together my son was doing good on school my middle son was finally behaving him self and well at the time my 3mnt old at the time was doing good from him being born early and on top of that i had gotten a job to help out around the house..

Well anyways so the conversation kept going and i realized he was breaking up with me not knowing how to take it i got up and just sat in the car all night and cried i felt all the waves of emotions pour in

That morning when he went to work i had to come with the grips of being a single mother of three sons and no way of raising them on my own i was scared cause i never thought I’ll be 23 with three sons and a single mom

So days pass and i found out from him that he was now dating god mother to my kids who is 40 years old by the way he’s 28.

It broke my heart into piece i cried so much and begged him not to leave me and the kids i tried everything to make him stay with me but i was only told he didn’t see a future with me anymore he was not inlove with me and the feeling he once had was gone

Now it around my bday and i had to

Work and he had to leave to go on business with his job little did i know he took her with him to the hotel

He came back January 2rd but b4 he came home he went to her house and did whatever I’m not sure at the time

Along doing this me and him was still having sex cause he lied to me and told me he wasn’t seeing her anymore i know stupid of me i should of never believed him

So i finally came to realization that we was never gettin back together and his heart was really with her so i asked him is there anything you need to tell me b4 me and the kids move out he told me no

So January 18th i got fired from my job an i didn’t even wanna tell him cause i knew it was gonna cost a big issue so that night he left and went to a party and i stay home with the kids trying to figure out what i was gonna do now jobless stuck and no family to help

January 30th he came rushing in the house and asked me to talk to him i was packing clothes up for me and my sons so we can move out or atleast find a place to live

Days before this he asked me to take him off my phone line and i agree to it but then i found out he was still in contact with the girl

Oh side note he works with girl he left me for..

Long story short even know this is kinda long he came out and told me they had sex and the only reason he got with her Cause of dumb stuff i did when we first got together

And the only reason he was telling me is because the girl said she was gonna tell me everything between them that happened

Days later i found out he gave me a std that i can’t get rid of and even know he wanna be back with me and begged me to come back i just don’t know if i can give him that chance again I’m just hurt mostly and I’m not sure what to do

Oh I’m 8weeks pregnant by him 🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️ again