Small rant

I'm tired of coming on here and seeing SO many positives. When TTC I feel like you get so selfish, I'm happy for others but constantly wondering "why not me?!" I had finally gotten a positive last month, then it turned out to be chemical. After 8 months of trying, I'm wearing down. I don't know how people do this years at a time. There was zero time with our son, sex once and boom, there he was. Why can't it be that easy again? 😔