Hello lovely ladies! I am 30 y/o and my husband is 29 y/o this coming June we will celebrate three years being married. We got pregnant for the first time in September of 2016, we were both over the moon with joy. Sadly that joy was short lived when October 5 I noticed some red spotting, rushed to the hospital and were told the worst thing I have ever heard “there is no heartbeat” my world came crashing down. To make things worst my body was not doing what it needed to do so I walked around for weeks pregnant but knowing my baby was gone, finally they decided to do a D&C; October 18, I was scared and sad and angry all at the same time. We wanted to try right away but knew I needed to heal emotionally and physically, then December 31 I’m taken to the ER again for my gallbladder, another surgery. We have been TTC with no luck and it hurts to see my husband be so disappointed each month. Sorry for the vent session, my angel baby’s birthday would’ve been May 10 and as it approaches I just think of all the what ifs