Am I broken? 😭

So my ex and I dated for almost a year and I broke up with him because he would do stupid shit (like drugs, branding himself with his best friend,etc.) and I just couldn’t deal with it. He was my first and the only guy I have ever been attracted to. Even before him, I would date guys and they would want to make out and such and it would gross me out, I was only not grossed out by him. It’s been a couple of months and I develop crushes on people, but never sexual feelings. No sexual feelings for anyone! Not even when I’m by myself at night! Help!😞