18 years old & had sex with 8 people?

I lost my virginity at age 13, and had sex with 8 people since.

Past 3 years I’ve only been with 2 people. (Including him)

My SO likes to bring up how many people I’ve had sex with and use it against me whenever we argue. I don’t have STDS, so that’s not exactly a reason to be mad at me about.

☹️ I can’t change my past and I used to beat myself up over it but I had major daddy issues growing up, and got raped when I was very young. (4 and 7 years old)

I feel awful and wish I could change it..

I don’t exactly know what I’m trying to ask or say, it’s definitely not “is this a normal amount”

but I don’t know.😕