warning tmi

I cannot believe I'm about to post this but I was masturbating (big whoop a girl that masturbates) anyway I started to think about my ex and for the life of me I couldn't get his face out of my head and I tried to think of something else or anything else but I just couldn't and the fact that I started to cry killed the mood that has never happened to me before God I sound like a crazy person it's just he's been on my mind a lot. I thought when I broke up with him it was for the best for both of us because we were so different and not to mention all the obstacles we had to go through and weren't even done going through and I know he's not thinking about me I'm nothing special. what is wrong with me I probably sound like the weirdest girl on the planet