Pcos frustration

I just wanted to take a moment to say fuck you pcos, fuck charting, and most importantly fuck false peak days. PCOS is honestly soul crushing. Now that I’m getting older I experience what feels like pms for a whole month and then nothing. No period. A whole month of sore boobs and cramps and crankiness with no af and no bfp. I’m starting to wonder if I’m ever going to be a mom, which is all I want from this life. All I want is my own family. I’m so scared to go to the obgyn and ask for help because I don’t even know why. I’ll be 28 in August, but I look like I’m in high school. Since I look so young I feel like doctors don’t take me seriously, especially my current gyn. All I can think about is how it was drilled into our heads as children that “ all it takes is one time”. I mean, adults said it so much I thought if I so much as held a boys hand I’d get pregnant! Why is this so hard?