I want to end it all...

All my life I have been the girl who can’t keep a decent friendship. My ex best friend and I haven’t been best friends in two years and I honestly miss her company so much. She was the one person who truly understood me and listened to everything I had to say. My current best friend is good but she’s too immature to notice that all I want is someone to talk to about my loneliness. I always do good for others but the moment I stop is the moment nobody likes me. My boyfriend is amazing but he’s too caught up in doing other things to notice that I’m lowkey lonely without him. They never seem to care about me, I’ve been praying and praying for a real best friend or at least a person that I could talk to about anything. I have all these trapped feelings and emotions that I can’t let out because nobody cares enough to listen to me. Everybody always says I’m pretty but I don’t care about that, all I want is for someone to acknowledge me and ask how my day has been or at least ask if I’m okay. I’m always there for people when they need me the most but nobody is there for me. The moment I shy away from my “friend” is the moment she automatically doesn’t like me. I was there for her when she needed rides to places or when she was selling candy at school I was the one that bought large amounts just to help her out, I would complement her even though she was insecure. I was always there. Maybe I’m just over reacting but I feel like I don’t belong here anymore, nobody cares. Nobody can see my pain, they never do, but when I’m gone I know they’ll all just forget about me and continue being the selfish beings that they are.