Acne and feeling sad

I’ve had acne since I was 12. Ever since then I can’t look in the mirror and feel happy. People say looks don’t matter but I get judged everyday by mine. I may not have clear skin but I’m not a bad person. It just makes me feel depressed and I feel like this isn’t talked about a lot because it’s just seen as complaining. Like I wash my face everyday spend a lot of money on face products and still nothing. I just broke out on my cheek and forehead and I’m just disgusted by how I look. I hate being the one daughter or friend with acne. Everyone always tries to give me face advice and it just makes you feel worse because it proves that people see what you see. I’m just not bothered to go outside anymore I just want to stay in bed with the lights off so no one has to see me