the lost of my miracle baby.

so I was suppose to be bout 12 weeks but unfortunately my baby heart stopped at 6weeks and stopped growing this was my miracle baby after another loss last sep I'm so hurt bcuz I never wanted to take the meds to but trying naturally my baby still doesn't wanna exit my body and I found this out 4/4/18 an have being walking around with my baby inside of me every since its a horrible and sad feeling so this morning I started cramping and spotting so I decided to take the meds and start the process of my miscarriage but I cant help but feel like im doing something wrong. God please forgive me for everything its all in your hands my angel is now yours thank you for my blessing😢🤧👼❤💔👣👣👣👣👣👣