so im fat

ok so in fat and im very aware of it most days it doesnt bother me but the days it does is when im trying to buy clothes. can someone please tell me why in 2018 it is so fucking hard to find cute plus size clothing im 24 i dont want to dress like im 70 just because the only thing that fits me is granny clothing i want cute clothes too and omg like i said i know im fat but i usually wear a 1x-2x in shirts but some companys make there stuff so small i cant even fit a 4x WHY!!!!!!!! ok im done now i had a very frustrating day clothes shopping