Moving out at almost 17 HELP

So, I just moved back with my mom in December and things were good for about a week or two, but then they went downhill. My mom and I have always had horrible fights with each other and one even physical. (Just pushing! I’d never hurt my mom.)

I’ve come to think my mom doesn’t love me like she says she does, and she only says that to make me feel better. And I know people are going to say stuff like oh she’s your mom and that’s just how moms are, blah blah blah, but my mom isn’t one of those normal moms.

Some of the things she does is unethical. Once I got my job, she started making me pay $10 for the electric. Which is completely fine! I had no problem with it! But one paycheck, I couldn’t give her the $10 because I didn’t get paid very much and I had to pay back a few people so I was broke. And since I didn’t pay the $10 (she puts on $30) the electric went off and we had no electricity for about a few hours late at night. She was at a friends place and I was there so I called her and told her the situation and she said that it was my fault we didn’t have electricity and I should be better from now on until my next paycheck. (I get paid biweekly)

So we argued and I was on my way over to a friends house after I told my brother what happened, and he told my dad and then yelled at my mom. So my mom texted me and said use the back up card but things will change severely when I get home. Moving along to the next day, we had another argument. I told her that she shouldn’t depend on me to get the household bills completed. She had the money to pay the bill, she didn’t have to do that! And she said its my responsibility and I said if you didn’t have that card we’d have no power and she said yeah, and I’d be staying at my friends house until we did. And I just stared. I got angry, and again, I said you can’t depend on your child to pay the electric bill when you’re an adult.

I get she’s trying to teach responsibility but there’s ways to go about it. So then she told me that I would not be using ANY electricity in the house until I gave her $10. I was like what the fuck?! So I went to take a shower, turned the light on to see and shower! She goes to the cable box and turns off the power in the bathroom. I got pissed, got out, and said she’s taking this too far, and that I need to leave to catch the bus for school. She was playing on a Monday morning! At 5:30 in the morning! I go to my room and turn on the light in there and she just turns off the power in the whole entire apartment so I had to use my phone light until I left. That happened for a whole week!

Honestly, that’s just a very small portion of how my mom treats me, like extremely small! I’d explain more but this would be too long.

But I’m looking to move out, she’s kicked me out once and has gone through with it, and then almost kicked me two other times since 2018 started. I love my mom, but I’m over living with her. I also can’t live with my dad, because he lives in Michigan. My brother wants to get a place with me, but I don’t get paid enough for them to consider it. I can’t go to a shelter because they’d take me out of school because my school isn’t around any shelters for me to get there and back at a reasonable amount of time. I’m a junior in high school.

I just need some help and options on how to get out of here, I can’t keep living here in these conditions. I feel myself slowly slipping back into depression. (I got diagnosed with it in the summer of 2016) Anything would help really. Thank you!