Feeling fearful/sad. Life after a chemical pregnancy.

For those of you who have experienced a chemical pregnancy or a miscarriage, how did you move forward?

My heart was broken last month and I am petrified of seeing a positive test again. I want to be a mom so bad but I can’t handle that emotional roller coaster a second time. I know it could have been much worse and the up side is that I was so early...but still. I was SO happy. And it was ripped away from me. It feels like a nightmare.

I know this experience will only make me stronger. I’m just so full of fear and sadness and I guess I’m still hopeful all at the same time. But am I going to get a positive and be petrified for 12+ weeks until its mostly “safe”? I don’t know how to move past these feelings. I guess I just need some reassurance.