TTC craziness???

So I guess I'm just looking for support maybe some advice... I have been on birth control for a very long time and recently got off because we are TTC, it's about time to test and I am just so nervous about it... I want so badly to get a positive and I know the chances are low since we just started... But I find myself dreading the possibility of a BFN... I can't even bring myself to test... I feel so silly but it is really driving me crazy!!! Thanks for letting me vent...