Still don’t feel how I should seven months later

I don’t feel good enough for my son. I love him as much as I know how. I just feel as if I need to love him more. I just want to feel that over whelming love. I just get such anxiety sometimes about being with him even though I know exactly what I am doing.

Also I should add I do believe it’s PP. I just don’t want to be on medicine. Any advice on how to manage?