So this is totally random, but I felt the need to write about it.

I just broke off an engagement (which was a joke in itself) on Valentine’s Day!

First, I’ll just explain that it was THE best feeling in the entire world to finally get myself away from someone so abusive and belittling.

I met this guy June 3rd, 2017. I knew the day i met him that I was in love. I called my grandmother and told her, “I’m not sure what love at first sight is but I think I just figured it out”

The first night we met, we drunkenly danced in the rain. Then put the shower on and let the bathroom steam up while not paying attention and just staring at each other for a good hour.

Needless to say he ended up destroying my entire world. One day at a time.

So, we had a perfect relationship for a good month or two... then he would get drunk and tell me he was still in love with the mother of his child. Bash my dead sister “what is she going to do, die all over again” He would hit me, call me disgusting names. Now y’all, I’m that girl that has no issue standing up for others furthermore myself!! I don’t know why I was compelled to stay with him. It became normal to me. He didn’t come home one night and I just hugged the floor crying myself to sleep. I left the next day after not hearing from him and then him coming home and laughing in my face with his friend as I was packing my stuff.

A month went past and he convinced me he would change and he did for a few months..

The bruises got worse even though we just bought a house together and got engaged..I wanted it to work. So bad! I told everyone I was doing great and things were fine. Until one day it wasn’t okay to me anymore and I got the balls to leave. He was the definition of a narcissist!

If I loved something, he had to hate it and keep me away from it. Family, friends, animals, food!

I’ve been dating one of my good friends for the past 2 months, and he shows me what love is really like. What i deserves to feel like. No words could ever describe how incredible stupid I look for staying, but until you find someone who shows you good, you’ll always be sucked into the never ending revolving door of a narcissist.

THEY WILL NEVER CHANGE! You’ve got this! STAY STRONG!

If a man tells you you’re nothing, you’re ugly, fat (at 118 lbs) stupid, won’t amount to shit & if he dare puts his hands on you, WALK AWAY THERE IS BETTER OUT THERE! It’s so hard & unless you’ve gone thru it you’ll never understand but now I do and I’m so grateful to be able to.

I always said how dumb girls are to stay with someone who would ever put their hands on you - but first hand, it wasn’t easy to walk away.