is this worth giving up to?

ive been a sahm since the 1st time i married my husband, which was for 5yrs. we have 3 kids and miscarried 2x. before i married him, he told me hed support my dreams/career, etc. but right after i married him, he lied, and talked me into being a sahm cause he doesnt trust anyone to watch our kids. i did as he insisted. now theyre 3,2,1, i told my husband i want to go do something too and not just stay home. like go back to school and get a decent career. at least have our kids say i do something too and not just stay home w them. and have a life of my own too. he got mad and said it was a mistake to marry me, he said im stupid, if it was him, hed rather just stay home and not work. lies. he also said he regrets giving me kids. i told him i just want us to be a team, we both work together, and take turns taking care of the kids. he said he doesnt want to watch them and i need to just stay w them until theyre all in middle school. but its been way too long now, i want to go do something too. is it worth giving it up completely? or should i leave to get my independence too,