Breastfeeding hunger and weight gain

Hi guys... so I’m now 30kg heavier than I was before pregnancy and 15 of that has been gained after giving birth. My weight started to bounce back to begin with but I am SO HUNGRY ALL THE TIME and I never feel completely full or satisfied. I’m now 95kg and have never been this heavy in my life. I’m so depressed about it and it’s an endless cycle of being tired and sleep deprived, being depressed about my weight, having zero energy or motivation and being hungry AF.

Anyone else go through this? What helped? With my last pregnancy I lost 16kg no problem but this time it’s so different. Maybe because I’m 30 and not 25 😹

Anyway... I hate looking at myself and it makes me want to cry all the time. I barely leave the house and nothing fits me so I feel extra yuck. Sex drive has gone from nympho to don’t touch me because I feel so so fucking ugly...

Before and after for reference. HELP