Co-sleeping? 😳

Does anyone else's babies have to cosleep? Scratch that...what about have to actually snuggle.

I know I'm going to get mixed opinions on this and that's okay

I know it's frowned upon and can be dangerous and/or devastating

But my baby will not sleep unless I'm holding him.

He used to sleep just fine in his bassinet next to the bed

Then he outgrew it a bit so we slept with him for a couple nights before getting a snuggle nest

He slept fine in the snuggle nest for a bit too

But now he will not sleep in anything except for our bed

And he won't even fall asleep unless I nurse him lying down facing each other

Sometimes after he falls asleep I will try putting him in his snuggle nest but a soon as I do he wakes up crying and if I don't immediately pick him up and lay him on my chest he starts screaming

This child is too smart

I know it's dangerous and I've read up on allot

This post isn't pro-cosleeping

But I just can't help but to think...it has to be a great bonding experience.

But then I also think about everything else, when it comes to him I'm way over protective

I am blessed that I don't have to work so I'm with him 24/7 and I am ALWAYS holding him

In fact he usually cries unless I'm holding him

My mom says its not healthy and that I need to give him space and take better care of myself

But i just love him so much I'm okay with skipping a few meals or showers or even sleep so that I can hold him and look at him just a few minutes longer

I don't know. I may be over the top but I like it this way. I know I always give him what he wants and I never let him cry, but from everything I've read psychologically, you can't spoil a baby.

I'd love some insight on anything related to this post. I've tried sleep training with him but I can not let him cry. So I gave that up to make him happy too.

I just get anxiety thinking about him getting upset, I cry if I he does too.

I know meeting his demands should make him happy, but I think by doing it so much he is more needy then he used to be and he gets more upset if he wants something.

It's like spoiling him leads to him being more picky about things.

I'm at a loss here