It was only a dream....

I dreamt that I was back at the Drs for the trillionth time trying to find out what I can do next to have a baby. (Side note: After 5 years of trying to conceive with my, now ex, husband, a year taken off because I was single, then now closing in on a year with my new boy friend.) My Dr looked at me and said you can't keep trying, bevause you're already pregnant! Well I dropped to my knees and wept and laughed. I didn't know what to do I was so dang happy! I could see my S.O jumping up and down. It all felt so freaking real. then I woke up and realized my battle isn't over.... I still don't have my little miracle. I'm really slipping into a dark sadness here...