heartbroken....

I've been ttc for over a year now and my cousin told me April 10th that she's expecting her 3rd and asked me to be the God mother..... then she sends me a screen shot of a list of prices for an abortion.... all I could do is cry... here I am driving myself insane pissing on test praying for positive results and she's ready to just throw her baby away... I'm at a complete loss for words.....