first timer need help


so i maybe pregnant. im a lesbian i want to get pregnant just not how it happened. lets say i went beyond my drinking limit and dont remember a lot. ok so i maybe about 2 or 3 weeks pregnant. i took a test on my first week came back negative. i never felt so emotional. i have cried about 4 times during a movie that i wouldnt cry on. i been freaking bloated for the last 2 weeks gas has been horrible and lower stomach discomfort. my period is suppose to show up today. that doesnt mean nthn my family is known to have periods Durning pregnancies. idk what to do. im scared im crying i dont want to be pregnant bc of the situation it came from. im stressing idk what to do. someone please help me.