Ugg why can’t this happen already:((

Sorry for the long rant that’s about to come but I’m so emotional we lost our beautiful son @ 37 weeks due to the unbilicord around his neck twice it was so so so so hard,, every since the doctor said we could try again we got on to it I did have a csection so I had to recover but it’s been a long 4 months I have days where I’m a wreck n days where I’m ok but I do have a 3 yr old daughter n she has helped me threw this hard time.. we have been trying n tracking n having a lot of sex just to have another little one and I think I ovulated on Thursday n today my stomach has been killing me so I was like might as well even tho I knew I wasn’t even remotely close to see if I’m even pregnant n every time this disappointment feeling comes on me please send baby dust our way bc I feel nausea but I highly doubt I would feel symptoms so soon but if anyone has experience something so soon tell me so I don’t go crazy