Pregnancy and Depression

I have always dealt with depression ever since I was a little girl. The youngest I remember is 10/11 years old. It came because of the bullying I was experiencing and having no friends. Even as an adult I still struggle with it. It comes and goes. I hate when it comes. I’ll be happy for a couple months and think I’m finally past it and then it’ll creep up on me again. It’s so hard to get out of bed to do basic things like showering and eating when I’m going through the depression phase again. Now I’m pregnant and it’s crept up on me again. I feel like a failure already because I see other pregnant women and they’re so excited and happy. Of course, deep down i am excited and happy. But the depression seems to shadow it, if you know what I mean. I just feel alone again. I want to know if they’re other moms out there who have depression so I don’t feel alone?