Doesn't seem real😭

My father passed away saturday in Texas from a really bad accident. From my understanding, it was a trailer of horses or something. That vehicle jumped the lane to avoid hitting the vehicle in front of him I guess. Nothing seems to add up, everything seems fake. My father said he would be here for me and my siblings, but he's gone, taken away too soon. It shockedus because grandma had just talked to him prior to and my cousin did too. I don't understand, I'm not satisfied with what I've been hearing. It sounds like too much information is missing. So the only thing I really understood was they were hit head on by the trailer truck. Nothing is making sense to me at all because he was just here. So now my father is gone and I don't ever get to hear from him again. His fíance was in the vehicle with him at the time of the accident, she walked away with bumps and bruises, so I don't understand why he didn't make it either. It's weird, I can't grasp any of this. It just doesn't seem real, it's a nightmare I wish I could wake up from!!!!😢