6 weeks miscarriage

Started spotting brown on Monday. Had an ultrasound done where they said there was no pregnancy present in my uterus. I had bloodwork done which confirmed I was pregnant but my BETA number was low for 6 weeks. Follow up bloodwork was Friday. That morning I woke up feeling like a heavy period was coming but I was still just spotting, red by bow. Driving to the doctors office I started having terrible cramps where I started to worry because they weren't sure if I was ectopic or not. The cramps were like level 2 labor pains. I had to moan and breathe through them. I got to the doctor's office and felt like I was being stabbed. I could hardly walk. When the nurse brought me back to the exam room I grabbed a chair and started crying it hurt so bad. I walked down the hall to get my blood pressure taken and felt a huge blood clot pass on my pad. I used the restroom to change my pad and passed an even bigger one while on the toilet. After that the painful cramps stopped but I still felt a little crampy. I finally got examined and she said my cervix was slightly open and I am most likely having a miscarriage. My emotions have been all over the place this week. One day I am told there is no pregnancy. The next day I am told I am pregnant as per my bloodwork. Then by Friday I full on have a miscarriage. We have been TTC for 10 months. I had a chemical pregnancy back in October. I am 38 years old and we have been TTC for number 2. I put my faith and trust in the Lord that His timing is perfect. Until next month it is. Oh and Preseed works. We got pregnant our first try using it but the pregnancy didn't stick. I am praying I have good eggs left.